[mood| Anxious ]

Well, I finally have a few minutes here at work today with nothing to do and I thought I'd post an update in my blog. It's been awhile! I've been pretty busy though, so it's not too shocking. I've been having a great deal of fun so far this year with friends, school, and all my activities, but am somehow usually stressed out at the same time. That's just how I operate!



Right now I'm having to focus mainly on practicing the sax, because I have to perform in a student recital sometime this semester, perform my jury at the end of the semester, play a scale examination in front of our studio class in a couple of weeks, and keep up with quartet, which will also be performing soon. Then there's band, and jazz band. Jazz band plays for a swing dance this Friday night and performs a concert a week from this coming Saturday. So, I have lots of playing to do! And I'm trying to practice as much as I can because I really want to build up and improve my playing...and the only way to do that is with consistent, constant practice. I'm looking a bit ahead into the future. I need to be solid now to reach my short-term and ultimately long-term musical goals and be ready for grad school auditions when they roll around. I really can't believe how soon that will be! In a few months I'll be halfway through my junior year and I have a feeling it's all going to fly by from now on. It's kind of a scary thought, so I try not to dwell on it too much at present. I really love it here at St. Olaf and I know that having to leave will not be the easiest thing to face. So I have to soak it all in while I can and just have fun! I'm doing my best.

Anyway, the next big break we have coming up is for Thanksgiving, and I'll be flying out to Montana for a few days to spend the holiday there with my grandparents, so that will be nice! Then I get to spend Christmas break in Oregon with my best friend and her family, who are close enough to be like my second family. Of course I'm super excited about that! So, there's lots to look forward to coming up soon here.

But...in the meantime...lately I've been having some rather intense, complicated personal issues that I've needed to manage on a regular basis. That along with the daily stress of classes and such, I often find it hard to maintain a positive attitude about things, because I feel like I'm always worrying about something and can't quite escape that feeling, but in the end I know I'll make it through and that things will turn out like they're supposed to. It doesn't necessarily make dealing with the present any easier but hey, if I can at least remember that, I'll have that as some sort of comfort.

Alright, that's all for now! I don't know when, but I'll update again sometime!

Oh, and Happy Halloween to everyone! Not like I'm doing or have done anything special, but oh well...an excuse to eat candy is always nice, I suppose. Yay!